tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post2198100038672168590..comments2023-06-20T09:46:05.549-06:00Comments on Chris and Laura & the Wamplettes: Part I: The RevealUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger29125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-9962903579881206042012-02-16T11:02:01.976-07:002012-02-16T11:02:01.976-07:00I think it is wonderful that you are posting this....I think it is wonderful that you are posting this. I experienced PPD with Bella and to an extent with each child (though I was already medicated for it before they were born so it was a lot less intense than with Bella). The more people know about it, the less shame there will be. You are wonderful Laura, never forget it!Naomihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15585633467660488298noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-70452966948558865452012-02-14T10:59:35.668-07:002012-02-14T10:59:35.668-07:00Bravo, Laura. I can't wait to hear the rest of...Bravo, Laura. I can't wait to hear the rest of your story. Please please continue to share. While I wouldn't wish these experiences on anyone, I know that it's therapeutic for me as well to hear that I am not alone. And that this IS a difficult thing. And that THERE IS HOPE. Love you.Jannekehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18261646788196553985noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-66994851828313612462012-02-13T10:18:53.616-07:002012-02-13T10:18:53.616-07:00Thanks for sharing, and keep writing! I've man...Thanks for sharing, and keep writing! I've many times wanted to write my experience with PPD, but I can never get it to come out right, so I just read others', and it makes me feel better. Check out my sister-in-laws blog, shttp://butnotunhappy.blogspot.com/. She is also a writer who suffers from depression, and her blog is great (her name also happens to be Laura). Keep writing!Lurahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12799037590014098511noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-62280390586442718732012-02-06T13:20:43.499-07:002012-02-06T13:20:43.499-07:00Wow...Laura..you should keep writing. I think it&...Wow...Laura..you should keep writing. I think it's wise to write what you feel and can write because it definitely will help more people. You are amazing...and I'm sorry I didn't notice something was up earlier. I remember visiting you after Ben was born and not thinking anything out the ordinary was going on...Please know I am here to help. I can babysit too if there is a day you need it. Love you!Gizzy Goohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14626087859552622385noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-33662986774893997862012-02-02T12:20:36.727-07:002012-02-02T12:20:36.727-07:00You are a very courageous, strong woman and I thin...You are a very courageous, strong woman and I think sharing your story will help more people than you probably realize. i am sorry for the pain you have endured and am glad to hear you are doing better.Kelly A.https://www.blogger.com/profile/07590844442230099668noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-7309718068352113282012-02-02T11:24:27.835-07:002012-02-02T11:24:27.835-07:00Oh my goodness. The fact that you can write about...Oh my goodness. The fact that you can write about this so well, well enough so everyone can learn from your hardship, is a mark of how extraordinary you are, Laura.Alyssa Harperhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18250235743361563503noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-43938510502409905062012-02-02T10:47:12.625-07:002012-02-02T10:47:12.625-07:00You are fighting a very courageous fight! Thank y...You are fighting a very courageous fight! Thank you for sharing your story, even though it is so personal. I'lAngie McKennahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02553127439464926820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-77554119821939837472012-02-02T10:39:34.520-07:002012-02-02T10:39:34.520-07:00That was a wee bit long of a comment. Sorry, I sho...That was a wee bit long of a comment. Sorry, I should have just messaged you. Love you.Mollyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18253454239615644888noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-27503691932591037702012-02-02T10:29:22.875-07:002012-02-02T10:29:22.875-07:00Besides the C-section part, it was like i was read...Besides the C-section part, it was like i was reading a page of my own life. I had horrible depression after I had Claire. So bad I remember laying in bed (I was pretty much useless for about 9 months) hoping that my recent pap-smear from my check up came back that I had cervical cancer so perhaps I would die because I had no clue how to care for my family. (Insane right?) I freaked out at the thought of making breakfast for my kids. How do you do that? My anxiety was through the roof, I became paranoid - i thought everyone was talking about me. I had a rough time going to church, if my doorbell rang I would freak out (you know I wasn't showering regularly or even getting dressed so much). It was awful. Anytime someone said that maybe I had the "baby blues" I wanted to punch them in the face. I couldn't admit I needed help. I kept thinking, maybe its because I am not exercising, or reading my scriptures, or fulfilling my church callings. Maybe I was just an awful Mother. Wife. Person. i didn't want to talk to anyone about it because anytime I tried people gave me crazy looks, told me I was depressed and told me to see a doctor. it was the worst with Steven. anything he did (not rinse his bowl out and stick it in the sink) was a personal attack against me. I would scream at him and really, I just felt like my life was falling apart. My family, Stevens family stressed me out so much. Any function was like the end of the world in my mind. When I became pregnant with Max (Claire was 11 months) all the sudden it was all gone. The pregnancy completely "healed" me...except I was able to look back and see what had happened. I realized I had been depressed after I had Nixon, but I became pregnant so quick with Claire I didn't realize it. I set up a plan for getting on anti depressants after I had Max. I had a dear friend explain it this way - Exercise and reading your scriptures are great, but if you had diabetes neither of those things would help my situation, the same went for my chemical imbalance. The one day from being home with Max before I could get to the pharmacy was Hell. All I did was sob. I didn't know why. I've been on Zoloft, which for me has worked wonders. I am not 100%, but I can function and care for the kids, I don't have panic attacks and I get out of bed in the morning. Due to my situation after I had Claire I stopped nursing her at 2 months. I couldn't deal with it, and I wasn't doing such a good job caring for her so formula made sense since dad could help. This seriously screwed me up when I had Max. I was already freaked out that I might have even worse PPD, I was scared I wouldn't be able to nurse him either, so I think that mentally, my body didn't allow me to. I barely produced any milk and I said screw it. I have regretted it every single day that I didn't try harder, especially since he has had so many problems with formula. Laura, this is not uncommon. I am so sorry Ben's birth didn't go how it should have. That kind of thing sticks with you because it is such a personal moment to share with your baby. Depression is Hell to go through. I love you!Mollyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18253454239615644888noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-4523534687565567352012-02-02T10:05:39.902-07:002012-02-02T10:05:39.902-07:00Laura, I am glad you are getting this out. I can&#...Laura, I am glad you are getting this out. I can't tell you how helpful I think it is for these things to be out in the open. I have friends who have struggled with PPD and it seems like half the trouble with it is the stigma that comes with it. The feeling that it means you are broken. I think the more people talk about it, the more we all will realize that it's a pretty normal part of life and that there are ways out. You're not broken. You just need a hand and there is nothing wrong with that. We all need help from time to time. Thanks for sharing your story.Katiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02093149264011642246noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-10770270353468805832012-02-02T09:18:54.335-07:002012-02-02T09:18:54.335-07:00And... I already know most of the story. But I...And... I already know most of the story. But I'm sure there is WAY more to know and hearing you write out the details is amazing. So, of course I think you should write it!!Tannie Datwylerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09689578919728477769noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-61411336789029160282012-02-02T09:18:20.682-07:002012-02-02T09:18:20.682-07:00I've been worried about you the last couple of...I've been worried about you the last couple of weeks... I haven't heard from you much and kept wondering how you were doing. You know I'm always here. I'll listen or I'll just be a support. I pray for you every single night. I hope you know that.Tannie Datwylerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09689578919728477769noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-64443079817813245992012-02-02T08:48:48.741-07:002012-02-02T08:48:48.741-07:00Laura, I am so glad you are able to share your sto...Laura, I am so glad you are able to share your story with others! I somewhat know how you felt with the depression side of things as my mother went through a very trying time when I was a teenager. It is hard to see someone you love struggle with depression but part of her healing process was sharing her experiences with others and helping them overcome the same challenges. I am SO glad things are getting better, just keep on moving up!!The Pearce Peoplehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09386379915091903022noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-51255271895906375012012-02-02T07:32:36.640-07:002012-02-02T07:32:36.640-07:00Laura, I love you. I just want you to know that I ...Laura, I love you. I just want you to know that I am ALWAYS here for you.I am so glad you are doing better now but I want you to remember you can always call me for a playdate or even just some time away from your kiddies. Feel free to drop them off sometime. We would love the visit. Maddie just loves playing with Jane. :)Liz, Karl, Madison, Brooklyn, Aubrey and Zacharyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06550509174324891093noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-66337945684663710462012-02-01T23:23:16.097-07:002012-02-01T23:23:16.097-07:00Story* always a typo with meStory* always a typo with meMeghannhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06402393610265527474noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-54367229241400103772012-02-01T23:19:24.230-07:002012-02-01T23:19:24.230-07:00I'm sorry for your pain friend. I've nev...I'm sorry for your pain friend. I've never has PPD but had depression after my dad died. It's very painful, I'm glad you're winning the fight. Keep it up! You write beautifully and I think your store will do great good, if shared.Meghannhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06402393610265527474noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-3771888741562794642012-02-01T23:15:12.628-07:002012-02-01T23:15:12.628-07:00I want to hear the rest. I NEED to hear the rest t...I want to hear the rest. I NEED to hear the rest to know you're ok. I feel like there is so much more I could have done, can still be doing, to be there for you. I know with what you're going through that there is only so much that can be done by others, but I still feel the need to help. And if listening is as good as it gets, I'll definitely do that! I love you so much! (fist bump definitely not a hug :])Michael and Amandahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04728056656010895418noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-2235087204861749212012-02-01T23:10:44.504-07:002012-02-01T23:10:44.504-07:00I would love to hear your story. I know that I mis...I would love to hear your story. I know that I missed the worst of it, but I'm glad you are doing better. I've found it such a relief in my own life to let things out. It is hard to over come things when you have to keep them hidden. I feel like I hold so tightly to them, rather than letting them go. Love you!Brendahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08578340455048488906noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-12908629421629875462012-02-01T22:21:26.681-07:002012-02-01T22:21:26.681-07:00I am also interested in your story. And I look for...I am also interested in your story. And I look forward to learning more about PPD and PTSD as you share your experience. As an army wife, I have gained an interest in learning about PTSD. I want to know as much as I can about PTSD in all its forms so I can understand and support any friends or family who may have it.<br />I am so glad to hear you are doing better! I have enjoyed reading your blog. You are a great writer.<br />-Holli SharpHollihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08972186088004022174noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-38671410234277701412012-02-01T21:44:00.818-07:002012-02-01T21:44:00.818-07:00Laura I would really like to hear the rest of your...Laura I would really like to hear the rest of your story and I hope you continue to do better!Meganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12187035189911769457noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-28345175899833423572012-02-01T20:15:58.369-07:002012-02-01T20:15:58.369-07:00Wow, I am surprised to hear about this, but my goo...Wow, I am surprised to hear about this, but my goodness, who's going to fault you?! I'm glad you're finding help. I'm looking forward to reading the rest of the story.<br /><br />I suffered from panic attacks my first year at USU. Those are not fun. I don't know how I got over those.<br /><br />Also, my house has been a flaming disaster, too. It's kind of a relief to hear I'm not the only one in that situation. Blogging and the Internet frequently show us only at our best. In honor of you, I'm going to go post pictures right now!Ruby in the Roughhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03015047163621783666noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-10965305664743169782012-02-01T20:07:35.997-07:002012-02-01T20:07:35.997-07:00I love you!I love you!Karriehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09105876616909111952noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-12989051318187926172012-02-01T19:47:00.514-07:002012-02-01T19:47:00.514-07:00Thank you for being so brave and sharing your stor...Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story Laura. I can't even imagine what you've been through. Since you're asking... my two cents worth is that your family blog is the perfect place to share this story. It is now part of YOUR story and family history...Elizabeth & Robertohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13305150602854504592noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-86775417309726127962012-02-01T19:41:59.751-07:002012-02-01T19:41:59.751-07:00It takes a lot of courage to tell this kind of sto...It takes a lot of courage to tell this kind of story. I would love to hear more. I love you a ton! Please dont be afraid to keep going, your story can help others and you do a fantastic job at writing it so others can comprehend.Charyl Bammerthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16355091840066796010noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8066828531000911484.post-46447880671503499062012-02-01T19:33:02.122-07:002012-02-01T19:33:02.122-07:00I'm so sorry for all you've been through. ...I'm so sorry for all you've been through. I just want to ditto everything Meags said.Erinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05659828391809463713noreply@blogger.com